Reason for not giving up.....?

[swapsmokeseed]

A three year relationship deterioration opened the door for my 28 year crack cocaine addiction to re-enter.
I'm currently signed into a week long detox facility.
It would be nice to get some mail and a few seeds upon discharge.
I'm an avid cannabis smoker, grower and breeder.
This year's looking to be my most successful grow season, however my usually sop of making seeds on every plant is fruiting this year.
I did happen to do a small auto flower seed program.

Anyone interested in sending a few seeds in a get well note to me for some re-inspiration.

Two weeks ago I etched both sides of my throat and wrist wide open to gaping bleeding desperate to die holes.

Anything other than pure hemp would be welcome and help me feel more at home once I leave here and search for a new place to live.
This community is great and I appreciate you all.

 

[Joheim]

It bears repeating in public, Spite. Pure "just because 'they' said otherwise" Spite.

My own mother and 2 step monsters said i was and will always be a failure. Told me I wouldn't amount to anything. 20 years later and I'm doing better than my "parents" ever did. Pure, unadulterated Spite.

 

[swapsmokeseed]

My parents are always looking for a chance to tell me...I told you so.
My ex never seemed to care I need her attention.
Is it alright if I morph into a complete whore for women?
I figure if I'm not lying to them, and don't become too needy, a little physical pleasure might just be what I need to carry on.
Side note.... Is it getting just as expensive for day to day living everywhere or is Nova Scotia just turning into an immigrants paradise as everyone else suffers inflation?
I gotta remember positive thinking. I've been a part of this growing and sharing community a number of years now.
Thanks everyone. I'm feeling better already.

 

[Joheim]

I say hoe it up brother! I swear if anything happens between my wife and I, I'm going to have a harem, to hell with all this marriage crap. And the girls that don't like it, won't be there!

 

[swapsmokeseed]

I love it, I was overloaded with women before I started this last relationship.
I wasn't happy with her, even though I loved her.
To whoredom it is.

 

[Lovesteks]

Man, sounds like you’ve been through a lot. I can’t imagine how tough it is to be where you are right now, but the fact that you’re in detox is a huge step forward.
I’ve known people who struggled with addiction for a long time, and one thing they said that helped them in the long run was finding a solid place to heal, where they could really focus on their recovery without distractions. Sometimes, places like Abbeycare's residential addiction rehab clinics give people a shot at digging into the reasons behind their addiction while getting away from everything that triggers them.